Ever sleep with a new girl, only to end up feeling empty inside once all is said and done?
Ever struggle with seeing yourself as a victim, blaming the world for not giving you what it owes you?
Ever start taking successes and failures far too personally, and letting them mess with and control your emotions?
Ever let your own false sense of superiority lead you to treat other people in ways you later wish you hadn’t?
Sometimes it feels like you might never win. Everyone seems to have their game together except you. You feel like you are always trying to “catch up”. It eats away at you subconsciously until you seek the lows you are used to. You rationalize away fleeting successes. You feel overwhelmed and, worst of all, you aren’t sure you enjoyed it all that much.
Recently I have been afforded a window of opportunity to study this feeling in myself again. It has been a long time since I have felt like this with women, but now as I reflect upon it I think it is a topic worthy of getting into for you guys.