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- Jul 15, 2016
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What's up everybody!
Finally decided to start my journal after a few days of procrastination. I'm a newly turned 21 year old currently residing in So-Cal. Shit is pretty decent at the moment. My story starts a few years ago. I recently finished my first year in college doing track and field but i had a gargantuan hole in my life. I wasn't happy, i was constantly alone, and the only sexual pleasure i had was furiously jerking of to hot bitches on my laptop. To sum it up, shit wasn't great for me. Constant arguments with my mum, victim mentality, and just being in such a hostile environment did a number to my confidence and self-esteem. Then after having another big altercation with my mum i said FUCK IT and decided to move to California and stay with my grandparents. Shit was tough. Learning to adjust to such a new environment. Having to start over and meet new friends and get a new job was tough but i learned to adjust
Then on one magical afternoon I discovered girls chase on a random google search about dealing with depression. I had come across other seduction websites but this one really stuck with me and soon enough i was constantly reading about pickup and becoming obsessed about it. Although this site is great and helped me tremendously it wasn't just this alone that brought me to this point. I've gradually changed my minds habit of being the victim and thinking negatively and build better mindsets through therapy and meditation. I've met tons of great people since i moved to California and even got really close with some lady killers along the way. Every day i could feel the growth and friends and family noticed me transforming from a weak,scared boy into a confident, optimistic young man. Now here i am a year later with a level of confidence i never thought was possible. Tons of shit has happened in my life to where i feel i can deal with anything i have to deal with now and in the future.
My situation with girls isn't great. In fact it hasn't ever been. I only had sex with one girl and she was far below my standards. I couldn't even get it up with her, i bought some weird Viagra product from Walmart (lol terrible experience btw.)
Through this all i know i can achieve great thing for myself as long as i continue to improve myself and get out of my comfort zone.
I just started getting serious about seduction since i joined the site a couple months ago and i can see immense improvement with my situation with girls. Some main sticking points i have right now is being able to approach consistently and not have girls flake on my meet ups. These are just two of the several sticking points but i will conquer these obstacles. I'm obsessed with getting better and fucking some girls senseless once i get this down and i cant wait till I do.
My goals are to achieve absolute abundance with women. In my past was super needy, constantly chasing and bending to girls wills. Accomplishing this will be amazing for me!
Also i want to be able to shape up a seducer identity thats 100% congruent with who i am as a person. Growing up i always tried to follow other so discovering my true-self through pick-up will be very exciting for me
there are other minor goals but those are the main two i want to accomplish.
I hope you all enjoy reading about my journey and observing and watching as my seduction levels surge past 9000 ( lol corny i know, but who doesn't love DBZ?)
Finally decided to start my journal after a few days of procrastination. I'm a newly turned 21 year old currently residing in So-Cal. Shit is pretty decent at the moment. My story starts a few years ago. I recently finished my first year in college doing track and field but i had a gargantuan hole in my life. I wasn't happy, i was constantly alone, and the only sexual pleasure i had was furiously jerking of to hot bitches on my laptop. To sum it up, shit wasn't great for me. Constant arguments with my mum, victim mentality, and just being in such a hostile environment did a number to my confidence and self-esteem. Then after having another big altercation with my mum i said FUCK IT and decided to move to California and stay with my grandparents. Shit was tough. Learning to adjust to such a new environment. Having to start over and meet new friends and get a new job was tough but i learned to adjust
Then on one magical afternoon I discovered girls chase on a random google search about dealing with depression. I had come across other seduction websites but this one really stuck with me and soon enough i was constantly reading about pickup and becoming obsessed about it. Although this site is great and helped me tremendously it wasn't just this alone that brought me to this point. I've gradually changed my minds habit of being the victim and thinking negatively and build better mindsets through therapy and meditation. I've met tons of great people since i moved to California and even got really close with some lady killers along the way. Every day i could feel the growth and friends and family noticed me transforming from a weak,scared boy into a confident, optimistic young man. Now here i am a year later with a level of confidence i never thought was possible. Tons of shit has happened in my life to where i feel i can deal with anything i have to deal with now and in the future.
My situation with girls isn't great. In fact it hasn't ever been. I only had sex with one girl and she was far below my standards. I couldn't even get it up with her, i bought some weird Viagra product from Walmart (lol terrible experience btw.)
Through this all i know i can achieve great thing for myself as long as i continue to improve myself and get out of my comfort zone.
I just started getting serious about seduction since i joined the site a couple months ago and i can see immense improvement with my situation with girls. Some main sticking points i have right now is being able to approach consistently and not have girls flake on my meet ups. These are just two of the several sticking points but i will conquer these obstacles. I'm obsessed with getting better and fucking some girls senseless once i get this down and i cant wait till I do.
My goals are to achieve absolute abundance with women. In my past was super needy, constantly chasing and bending to girls wills. Accomplishing this will be amazing for me!
Also i want to be able to shape up a seducer identity thats 100% congruent with who i am as a person. Growing up i always tried to follow other so discovering my true-self through pick-up will be very exciting for me
there are other minor goals but those are the main two i want to accomplish.
I hope you all enjoy reading about my journey and observing and watching as my seduction levels surge past 9000 ( lol corny i know, but who doesn't love DBZ?)